A Poem on Self Awareness

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hello self

i used to get lost

looking for myself in the facade of a world bent on

remaking the original in the image of a lie

birthed in a deficit

seeking elements for completion of a soul

without space

 

I used to get lost

looking for myself in the words spun by lips pursed

to bestow a judas kiss

raised in a scene

taken from an unfinished play stolen by

untalented mimics

 

I used to get lost

looking for myself in the prayers of the faithful

with injured hearts

molded by rhetoric

never meant to inform actions only statements

guaranteed to fail

 

i used to get lost

looking for myself in the arms of a love

too small to hold me

exhausted by the search for self

i learned to stand still and wait

to allow the pain to wash over me

the need to drench me until i was left trembling

 

i learned to sit in the agony of my wounds

while the stitching of reality healed me

i learned to hold myself still with the hunger of wanting

while the lesson in self discipline unfolded

 

and then i met a transformative presence

stole my breath away

apprehended the very essence of my existence

wrenched me inside out

the entirety of my life was altered

 

i became acquainted with myself

kjwilliams/2014

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